I explored a feeling that I encountered that day, which was sorrow. First I searched where it was located in my body and then I visualized how it looked like. It was an orange ball in my belly, and on it was a black lid made of tar, which was located in my stomach. I gave me the feeling I repressed my grief. I dialogued with the two components of the drawing, and discovered I met a top-dog in the lid. I could have stopped there, it gave me much, but I decided to draw two extra cards for still more information, using the RWS.
The first card was for insight in the black tar lid. Eight of Pentacles came on the table as the card to give me that insight. I work to evade feelings which leads to repression. I knew that, but still, it is confronting.
The second card was for insight in the colour orange. For that I pulled King of Cups. I was shocked seeing him, he is so in control. The control-thing came out already in my dialogue with the colour orange and the lid showed that of course. But still. I did not like seeing him in relation to this colour which showed my feeling.
When I pasted the cards on the paper and after I used my pastels to make a drawing, I saw how me being busy disconnects me from my feeling side. The King of Cups, sitting in the middle of the orange ball, represses my feeling side extra.
I could not sleep, I had a stomach-ache just at the place where the lid of tar was in my body.