exhausted
The whole spread revolves around ones “Heart desire”, which is card 1 of the spread. I pulled Three of Teacups (Cups) for this desire using the Tarot of Jane Austen. My desire is to have more fun and joy in my life. Card 2, which shows the future of this desire, Eight of Quills, and Card 3, which shows a blockage, Seven of Teacups, told me that it is hard for me to really feel this desire and fully understand what is fun and joy in my life. It took me a few days to really feel and understand the extent to which I lack it and how I need it in my life. It appeared that I was setting up a delusional world for my wish and have trouble accessing it (Eight of Quills and Seven of Teacups).
The Emperor and Ten of Candlesticks (Ann Alliot), card 4 and 5, showed me that I have a strong moral code, which makes it hard to feel fun and joy, and to go for it. I also looked into my resistance to the Three of Cups card: I judge it as superficial and ‘over the top’. This showed my strong moral code as well.
The last card that I pulled was Eight of Coins (again Anne Elliot), which showed the outcome of my psychic development. I saw this card as a mixed blessing: at the one hand, I will be confident, be able to do many things effortless, and on the other hand I will be probably working hard, which might make enjoying difficult.
All in all, my heart desire is not an easy thing to obtain.
