I have pulled Seven of Squills from the Tarot of Jane Austen. Pictured is Mrs. Norris – again – from Mansfield Park. Mrs. Norris is someone whose first priority it is to get her own needs and desires met. She is not an honest person and her deeds are questionable.
This seems to be not a good card to pull for what is most sacred to me. Still, the card is right. Thing is, I love shopping and buying books on whatever I am interested in. More often than not, these are books about spirituality and religion; themes that are of importance to me. I always keep secret what I have bought. Just as Mrs. Norris, who seems hiding something stealthily on the card, I do that to. It makes the books more valuable and sacred somehow.
Now that I think of it, I am someone who does not talk easily about what is sacred to her. I feel vulnerable in that. There is stealth in that too. This attitude is not a beneficial one. It has made me lonely, and it can still, if I fall in this pattern of behavior.
I had not expect this card at all.