They talk to each and in this conversation Jesus says “Everyone who drinks this water will get thirsty again. But no one who drinks the water I give will ever be thirsty again. The water I give is like a flowing fountain that gives eternal life.” The water Jesus gives is a flowing fountain, the well is not needed anymore, the water springs up from inside. I wonder: “What is the well in me that gives me eternal life?” I received Eight of Teacups (Cups) from the Jane Austen Tarot.
The card is based on Mansfield Park. On the card Fanny Price, the principal character of the book sits in a carriage. She is crying. Fanny, who comes from a poor family, does not want to marry a wealthy suitor. Her uncle in whose house she stays, thinks otherwise. He wants her to marry him. By her uncle she is sent to her own poor family again. He thinks that if Fanny stays there, she will come around and marry. On the card she is going to her family again. Although she looks forward to meet them, there is sadness in the card, the carriage is black, and she is crying. In the end it is not easy for Fanny to stay with her disordered family, but she learns from it. She grows emotionally. And, by reuniting with the family, Fanny charts unknown terrain on a deep level, and through her experiences she becomes a ‘new’ Fanny.
So, what is the well within me that gives me eternal life? This is chartering unknown terrain on a deep level, and developing paths that are new to me. This road is not based on the pleasant lightheartedness of the Fool; it stems form an inner need or longing, a sadness or a loss, a dissapointment, something that is unfulfilled in my heart. Strangely enough this feeling of being unfulfilled is the inner fountain in me, because that is what makes me follow a new path.