March 3rd, 2007

Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Friday, First Week of Lent, John 3:22-36, John and Jesus

Today I have met somebody who collects tarot decks! She has 500 or so. It was in a course about reading Psalms with the use of the tarot. She said she probably will write about it in the Tarot Magazine. It must be wonderful to have a such big collection as she has (I am not complaining, I only want the Full Moon Dreams Tarot Deck badly, but it is sold out at the moment). 

The passage I have read today is about John and Jesus (John 3:22-36). Both John and Jesus are religious leaders of some sort. We would call them gurus probably, charismatic people with a message of hope and redemption. John and Jesus baptize both, but more people go to Jesus to be baptized. In the passage I’ve read, John makes clear that he is different from Jesus. He points to Jesus, and he sees Jesus as the promised Son of God. He compares Jesus with a bridegroom, who has a bride, while John is only the friend of the bridegroom, who does not himself has a bride, but rejoices that his friend has one. What also is a difference according to John is that Jesus ‘comes from heaven’ and John is ‘of the earth’. John then says about their difference in tasks: “He must increase, but I must decrease”, comparing Jesus and himself with the phases of the moon. John must go inward and Jesus must become brighter and bigger to come in the limelight of the public attention. I do not know what is a better place. I would rather be John than Jesus. 

I’ve asked the tarot two questions today, derived from what John says about the difference in position of John and Jesus, 
1.What was the religious/spiritual task of Jesus in his life (as I see it now)? 
2.What is my religious/spiritual task (in life)? 

I have pulled The Motherpeace Tarot from my little bag of tarot deck to work with.


For the religious/spiritual task of Jesus I have pulled the High Priestess, reversed. The High Priestess, among other things, governs the laws of life, and she also represents our inner voice, or the inspirations and visions we receive, that guide us in life. Since I have pulled this card reversed (which is energy that is inward and has yet to grow), I take it that is was the task of Jesus -as I see it now- to become more and more aware of who he was and what his spiritual task was in his life, his destiny and his purpose. He became aware of it by listening to his inner voice. Towards the end he knew fully what his task was and he did not sway from it until he died. 

For my own religious/spiritual task I have pulled Six of Disks, upright. This is a card of sharing, of giving and taking, of healing and being healed. This is new for me. I need to look at the card for hours 


I have given at a try though. When I see myself as the woman on the card who is doing the healing, then what I am doing is letting energy flow between me and the other; that way it heals. So, it is my task to share healing knowledge, or faith, or spiritual knowledge that is beneficial. It need to be done on an equal basis; it is healing for me as well as for the person that is being healed. 

Schedule of texts: Dienstboek, Zoetermeer, 1998.
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Saturday, First Week of Lent, John 4:1-26, Living Water

This Lent I read a bible-passage each day and I pull a card about its theme. 


Today I have read the story of the meeting between Jesus and a woman of Samaria at the well from Jacob (John 4:1-26). Jesus is thirsty and asks the woman something to drink from the water of well. She is very surprised that Jesus asks her this, because she is from Samaria. Jews and people from Samaria did not get along, and did not have dealings. Jesus then offers her in an implicit manner also water, but “living water.” He says: “If you knew the gift of God, and who it is who says to you, ‘Give me a drink,’ you would have asked him, and he would have given you living water.” Jesus tells her that from living water, you are never thirsty anymore.

It puzzles me what this ‘living water’ stands for. So today I have asked myself what this living water would mean to me, in my life and situation. Would it be never-ending inspiration, a direct telephone-wire with God, a well that replenishes me and heals my ailments? What is this to me: ‘living water’? This is the subject for my card today in this entry.

I have pulled the Empress from the Voyager Tarot to inspire the answer. I have pulled the deck I've used from my little bag with tarot titles, today no doubt inspired by lecknerlakewho is reading the Voyager Tarot in her journal at the moment.

The openness and freedom of this Empress is appealing to me, when I look at the card. It is if the Empress on the card is able to do everything as she pleases without boundaries, and it looks if nothing is bothering her. So unlike me. 


But I know there is a darker side to this card, that the Empress cannot do everything what she pleases. The Empress is a card of cycles. The Empress is the mother who grieves her daughter or son who went away to the underworld. She is Demeter who mourned her daughter Persephone, Maria her son Jesus and Isis'  Osiris.

On a deep level the Empress is the card in the tarot that shows that life does not end with death, but that new life is born in a new cycle, even if it has to come from the deep, deep underworld, even when it really, really costs.

So, what is ‘living water’ to me in my situation and life? It is not omnipotence, being able to do everything without any limitations, and boundaries, what appealed to me when I looked at the card, and what I long for, honestly. No, it is my (and not only mine) ability to create -with lots of mourning and tons of effort- something new when something or even all in my life seems dead.

It sounds bombastically, but it is resurrection itself. 

Schedule of readings from: Dienstboek, Zoetermeer, 1998.