July 19th, 2007

Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Heart of Dis-ease, Card 1: Impatient

I am starting a new spread from Tarot for the Healing Heart. It is called “The Heart of dis-ease”: listening to the message in tarot. The spread tries to discover the message in the illness. Lessons in life-wisdom is what Christine Jette calls them. I wonder I like that kind of perspective.

The first position is called “The Heart of the Message”: it tells what is the most needed work now. All other cards respond to this one.

The card that I have pulled is Seven of Pentacles. 

                             

The girl on the card is harvesting fruit in the autumn, but takes a break to admire a little bouquet of flowers. It suggests that it is important to stop, pause and enjoy, let your thoughts wander a bit to nice things, after having done a lot of work. Task is: not to be impatient, not let ambition prevail above other values, trust the growth process (not hasting).

I am often very impatient with work that needs to be done, wanting having it done yesterday. I can even loose sleep over it, not being able to catch sleep and then just do part of it. I am very happy that most of the work that I needed to do for this fall is finished. I had want to more, but well. What I only must do, is writing a paper, but I am up steam with that.

Being impatient has a big effect on my health, in the sense of stress. Most needed work now: pause
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Heart of Dis-ease, Card 2: Avoiding Emptiness

Today I have read position two: Life Lesson, from the spread “The Heart of Dis-ease” The question is: What blocks your growth or prevents you from taking loving action on your behalf?

The card that I received is Three of Swords, from the Victorian Romantic Tarot. 

                                  

A desperate woman is pictured; she is crying. What prevents me from taking loving action on behalf of myself is avoiding sorrow. I work in full speed. Taking a break, the suggestion of card one, means confronting myself with a sort of emptiness, loss, grief and sorrow. Resting means there is the possibility it can come up. 

To my relief, I had some good times today in which I managed to relax. My daughter was on the trampoline in the garden, and I sat in a chair beside her with a cat from one of the neighbors on my lap. 

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That dog clinging lovingly to the lady on the card reminds me of our family dog that guarded me when I was outside in my crib as a baby (from stories of course).