September 5th, 2007

Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Cinderella's Victim Spread, Card 12: Victim Again

I do not like the last card that I have pulled in the Cinderella’s Victim Spread very much. It is the card that I pulled for the “Happily Ever After”, the outcome of my regaining my true desire. It is Two of Swords from the Ma’at Tarot and I have interpreted the card with the help of the Ma’at Workbook, written by Corrine Kenner. 

                           

Two of Swords is associated with the new moon in Libra. This card is about taking measures to regain a healthy balance again. It shows in a symbolic way the culling of the herd, which in the end strengthens the herd. I finished my last entry with the words. “It will be a tough fight”, to really lose the victim mentality. Here is the killing. Drastic measures are needed for my worrying and sleepless nights to regain balance. The conflict I am feeling between me needing many projects and the need for rest is resolved by cutting on the card. Cut the unhealthy things out is the message. But that is not easy. I need the projects to feel good (about myself). I need the rest. The worrying I do is unhealthy (that is where I started this spread), but “then just do not worry (cut that out) and go to sleep” is not really a solution, but that does not help. I have pinned myself down just now. Victim mentality? 
  • Current Mood: disappointed disappointed
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Cinderella's Victim Spread, Card 12 For a Second Time: Saved

I woke up this morning, feeling yesterdays' glass of whine, and I thought: “I have read the last card of Cinderella’s Victim Spread, called: ‘Lived Happily After ‘ as an ‘What-To-Do-Card' and  that is wrong!" It was in fact a Result Card, the outcome of the previous cards. I pulled Two of Swords for that position. My previous interpretation of that card showed how difficult it will be for me to regain balance by just ‘cutting off’, stopping unhealthy practices and attitudes. But no, they are already cut off through the change in behavior suggested in the previous cards. I read the card a second time now. 

                           

Two of Swords in the Ma’at deck is associated with the new Moon in Libra, the sign of balance. On the card balance is regained by culling the herd, shown in a symbolic way by scissors and a wolf, a predator.

The outcome is the following. I will live happily ever after if I succeed in not giving in to the temptation of wanting do to too much, or far more importantly, wanting do to it too perfect. If I succeed in that there are ‘cut off’ some unhealthy attitudes and I will have regained more balance in my life. 
  • Current Mood: frustrated frustrated