November 5th, 2007

Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Blue Monday

Back to normal again. These last three days were like a whirlwind, starting with teaching in Amsterdam on Friday followed by the psychic fair in the weekend.

I have been to the Cesar therapist this morning and prepared for a class which I taught this afternoon. Now I have the feeling I am back to normal and on earth again. Exhausted though and in pain. Now and then I think back on the moving and difficult stories the people I read for told me, but not in a bothering way. I’ll send prayers.
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Pumpkin Spread, Card 8: Trust the Stream of Life

I have pulled card 8 of the Pumpkin Spread. These are the positions.

1. Cutting out and removing the lid: What you need to temporary lift to enable you to see yourself clearer?
2. Scooping out the pumpkin: What you need to work hard on or work through?
3. The seeds you reveal: How you can grow? Your potential?
4. The flesh you remove: The obstacles in the way to let you grow?
5. The hollow: You darker self. What is within you that remains unseen?
6. The carving: What you need to pay attention to?
7. The candle: How you can best shine? Your postives? How to reveal your darker self?
8. Replacing the lid: How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?
9. Placing the pumpkin in the window: How others will see you and respond?

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Based on by the action of replacing the lid after the candle lighted the question for Card 8 is: “How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?”

From my little bag with deck titles I picked the Inner Child Cards to work with and pulled Four of Swords. The card shows four boys on a raft in a stream going slowly towards a goal what is to be seen on the top of the card. The raft goes easily through the water, no real effort is being made. 

                       

The improvement I will notice is that I’ll go more easily with the flow, that I will have more trust in the stream of life. My eyes are set on where I go, but the journey is easier.The overly controlling forces like the Emperor –which was my obstacle for growth in this spread- and the Queen of Swords, the attitude that I had to temporary lift, will bother me less. 

                                    

I will feel more affinity with the free flowing Ace of Cups instead (on which a river is shown, just as on this card, Four of Swords). The trust of Five of Coins, the card that showed what I needed to work hard on, will be there too. The boys trust their raft.