December 31st, 2007


Bringing in the Boar

Two cards from yesterday’s spread that summed up my year were funny. The card that I pulled for the study, the area of work was the Seeker of Wands (Knight of Wands). 


Pictured on the card is Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz. Beside her is a giant balloon, and she is looking at her shoes. Dorothy makes a big journey in the story. Through this trip she gets to know who she is. Last year I started to teach in Amsterdam and I taught two workshops in Belgium, far away from here. So journeys have been important in my work. 

I have drawn Seven of Crystals (Pentacles) for the position of the Bedroom, my restfullness in the past year. 


On the card a gnome lights a candle at an altar. Outside it is freezing. I saw in this card me writing my weblog; often I write in the quiet of the late evening, journaling brings me back to my inner core. Many times it made me feel content and that helped me to fall asleep. I also turned to my blog in those moments when I could not sleep; that helped me as well to get my rest. But now something contradictory. It is freezing on the card. I write at the attic where it is a lot colder than downstairs. Repeatedly I could not sleep for hours really, because I had become too cold to sleep. 

Looking Back

Last year [info]chelsearoad had pulled a card for me for 2007 from the Jane Austen Tarot. She had pulled a card from the only book I had read from Austen back then, Northanger Abbey, which was nice. It was Five of Candlesticks (Wands). 


The scene on the card is that Catherine Moorland stands up against her friends and brother and walks away. They want her to do something which she knows that would be spiritually incorrect, and besides that, is is something she does not want to do. The card is about recognizing and keeping your boundaries. These come into play when conflict in opinion rises or when the expectation of parties involved are conflicting. She said that I would be tested again and again to think about what really mattered to me.

Although boundaries are always a point of concern in my life, this year they were very much a theme, even more than in other years. Especially stand up for and do what really mattered to me was a theme during this past year. I met it in a conflict in my work, which gave me many grey hears; it played also in the amount of work I could handle in combination with my family. I met the card also in my choice of treatment when I was ill which was disputed. Thus, recognizing what really mattered to me and sticking to it, was indeed a topic this year.

Twelve Days of Christmas, Sixth Day, New Years Eve

The spread in the Twelve Days of Christmas for New Years Eve -today- is inspired by the doughnut-balls we are used to eat in Holland on this day. They are fertility symbols.

In this time of year we do many magical things that are meant to invite fertility in our next year. The theme of this spread is fertility. The spread consists of three cards.
Doughtnut-ball Spread
Card 1: What was fertile in the year that is almost past? (Look at the card you have pulled and put it back in the stack. What was fertile might bear fruit again).
Card 2: What will be fertile next year?
Card 3: How can I enhance this fertility?

And yes...I have pulled the same card for what is was fertile this year and will be in the next: Mother Goose (Empress) from the Inner Child Cards. 


This past year my creativity is what bore fruit. I have brought many eggs to the earth, and that is also the outlook for next year. The Child of Hearts (Page of Cups) is the attitude that enhances my creativity (Card 3). 


The girl looks into the house. I can improve my creativity by looking into myself, by recognizing what my feelings are and taking them seriously. I should pick up projects that I really go for, that I really like, and that touch me somehow. The girl on the card is curious and she seems to have a feeling of awe. It would be helpful to keep a sense of wonder about what tarot is and how it works. To me, nourishing is also a theme of this card: there is a nest with eggs and I can see mother bear, father bear and little bear standing on the path towards their house. Mother Goose holds the goose quite tight. On the card of the Child of Hearts is more openness and less obligation. Less pressure would be great.