March 9th, 2008

new moon

Rosh Chodesh March, Adar Sheni

I am a day late for Rosh Chodesh. No time and energy earlier. This is the Jewish celebration of the new month. It starts when the first silver line of the new moon can be seen in the sky. Theme of this festival is renewal and hope. Just as the moon, the Sjechina, Gods femine dwelling in our world, can renew itself each month, we can renew ourselves. Theme of last month, the month Adar, was joy. For almost the whole month I thought this theme was not fitting for me. But last week, noticing how little I write down about my joy and pleasures, and how I focus to much on sad things and let my inner critic speak, I recognized how this theme played a role in my life.

My card for last month, pulled with the question “What to renew?”, was the Devil from the Jane Austen Tarot. 


I have focused on the bond with my daughter, and have been on the look-out not to dominate her, keeping an open communication. Furthermore I met the Devil as my inner critic and in the last week I have gotten a chance to renew this, by pulling the Five of Cups from the Sacred Rose Tarot. It was an answer to the question: "In which appearance comes Jesus towards me?", That question was ispired by the story about the disciples who are saved by Jesus who walked towards them over the water, on which they were sailing while it was heavy weather. 


On the card two cups are empty, and two cups are emptied. one of these cups is emptied in another, so the water is contained (as on the Temperance card). From the cup in which the water flows grows a rose. As I see it now, including the Temperance card in my interpretation (which is my Inner Teacher card), Jesus shows me to focus not solely on the loss, but to temper that with focusing on other pleasures. I found it difficult to see that because Jesus comes here in the embodiment of loss (five, crises).

The name of the month that is now starting is Adar again, Adar Sheni, and again the theme of the month is joy. The coming month has femininity is woven into it, because the holiday Purim is celebrated. Esther, a woman who bravely saved the Jewish people is the main character of this festival.

The card that I have pulled with the question: “What can I renew this month?” is the Knight of Quills (Swords) from the Jane Austen Tarot.  


The figure on the card is Frank Churchill and comes from the book Emma. Frank Churchill is clever, very good with words, but sometimes used in a negative way, hurting and manipulating. The knight of Swords takes action, often fast action. I need to be careful with the words I speak (also to myself) and I will remember that I should take action in time (quickly and decisive) when it is called for.    
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

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Just to have an extra token of memory on the course about Psalm 119 and the tarot, this photo. One of the participants took part in a course there that evening, for which she had to cook and make the table ready. For that she had taken these flowers with her, the bowl and candles, and she put them on the table in our course first. Very lovely. I forgot the name of the flower, it is a wild one, purple and pink.

Next time I’ll take not only my water color pencils but all my pastel pencils and oil pencils with me, just as I did the first time around for this course. One of the students kept going over the red parts in her drawing, many, many times over to make it more red - sometimes the colors become vague when you go over them with water. That had happened to her. In that case normal pencils or oil pencils are better. But the fact that she did accentuate the red so strongly was important and moved me, because she needed the red so very much. I handed her over the best red pencil I had, but it was not enough; she is doing the drawing another time at home (she loves colors).

For some time now I am pondering what creative exercise will fit in the course on the next seven cards and seven stanza’s of the psalm. It is the level that starts with Strength and ends with Temperance. I thought about making a rattle of some sorts, a ‘shaker’, with rice in an empty closet role, closed off on both sides. You can decorate it with several bands of paper, on which you can write or color symbols. It can be done at home or in the lessons themselves. Much is shaken up in that level (Wheel of Fortune, old patterns). In the next level even more, but for that I have set my eyes on fabricating and embroidering (in an easy way) a prayer shawl. They have very cheap shawls in IKEA. If they are still there, and if I’ll find an easy way to embroider them it can be done.