Clare supports Agnes in her Second Letter (1235-38) in her rejection of profit from a hospice, by urging her to remember her vocation, the reason why she started all this. Clare and Agnes wanted to live in poverty. They wanted to live from what they received from the community, not having anything of their own. What they received they gave to the poor. Their lifestyle is a consequence of their founding purpose. It is their vocation; it is was what they longed for when they entered and established their monasteries.
“(10) But because one thing is necessary, I invoke this one thing and advise you, by the love of him to whom you have offered yourself as a holy and pleasing sacrifice, (11) to be mindful, like a second Rachel, of your founding purpose always seeing your beginning.”
The cards for Day 6 to 12 focus on your own special divine vocation. The question of today is:
What is my founding purpose, my divine vocation?
Compare the card you receive here with the cards of day 1 and 3. (I'll not do that right now.)
The card that I have drawn for my special divine vocation is Four of Disks (Pentacles). A four poster bed is pictured in an empty room. Above the bed is a painting that brings into memory the High Priestess of this deck.
This card is the opposite of yesterdays’ card. Christ’s vocation (what you could call poverty which was the subject of the card, becoming human) is wandering, while mine staying put. It is the first time that I consciously think about the subject of vocation, and to be honest I do not feel uplifted by this card. It is boring and empty, enclosed. There are no diversions, what so ever. It looks like a prisoners cell or a cell in a convent.
The card must show something that I really and honestly like and what go for, because it is my vocation.
I will be blogging 6 days about this subject, so I start writing about it today, and maybe add stuff later in other entries.
I love my own room in the house, it has an atmosphere I like. I love being in my working place as well, which has not my atmosphere, but is a chaotic attic with a stuffy library, and I am always alone there. These are the places where I am most connected with the divine, not in meditation, more in an earthy way, through the subjects I work on. I am not focused on heaven or anything while working. I find it more in the depths of myself, in what is touched in myself through the spreads I make, or in the material for my lessons tarot I develop, focused on psychology and spirituality.
This is not really an answer, it does not say what my vocation is, but it is a start.