This entry will be very brief, due to the activity of decorating the Christmas tree and going to the Christmas service organized by the school of my daughter. That was very lovely and moving, little children dressed as lambs, and the Christmas play was funny. But, to be honest, I had forgotten the service. Yesterday I went to her street-dance performance and I had forgotten that today there was something as well for me to attend. When I came home from doing groceries there was a typed paper on the front door that said: “Mom, I am gone to the Christmas service now. I find that you must not forget my activities”. I was home just in time, she was still inside, crying.
What will give me stability? I think it will give me stability if I did not look at myself as a real bad mother forgetting the Christmas service. My daughter cried, I felt really bad about it, but probably, in essence, the relation is ok. This accounts as well for the other issue, having too much to do in one day, although that is less important than the relation with my daughter. I do what I can, and I do it with love.