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Second Day of Lent, John 1:29-34, The Dove


Today, on the second day of Lent, I have read John 1:29-34. In this passage the prophet John points to Jesus as the Messiah. John had recognized Jesus as the Messiah because he had seen the Spirit descending on Jesus. It had come as a dove, and stayed with him. It did not go away. It stayed. God had told John to look out for someone on who the Spirit descended and remained with him and that is what he had seen with Jesus.

              

Doves are bringers of peace and new life. It was a dove that brought back an olive branch to Noah to show him the flood was over and new life was possible. It were doves that were brought as sacrifice in the temple. And it is a dove that feeds her children out of her own. It was not a eagle that John had to look out for, a big and powerful animal, ruler of the heavens, no it was a dove, a peaceful dove.  
 
The dove foretells us what Jesus ministry will be about. Jesus ministry is about softness, about forgiveness. That would be Jesus’ life and his road: soft, sacrificing and life-giving as a dove.
 
I wondered today: “How on earth do I fit in this road, what is my place on this road of Jesus?” This is the question I have asked the tarot today.
 
The deck that I have pulled to use for this question (out of a bunch of five decks) is the Jane Austen Tarot by chelsearoad, and the card that I have pulled from it is Ten of Candlesticks (Ten of Wands). 

                                
                                    
Pictured on this card is Anne from the book Persuasion. We see Anne playing the piano for people who are merrily dancing. Between these dancers is Captain Wentworth, now a rich man, different from earlier days, when he was poorer. The captain is flirting and courting in search for a wife. A long time ago Anne had been engaged to him, but she broke that, because her friends and family said he was socially and financially unworthy of her. She has always regretted that and is still single. There she is now then, head bowed down, in service to all the merry guests, helping the captain to another wife, surpassing and sacrificing her own desires and love for him.  
 
I am on the road of Jesus as Anne on this card. I, as Anne, playing the piano for merry partygoers, head bowed down, thinking all wrongly that I must forgive all and everything; that I must be soft with everybody; that I must bow my head and be in service. These are all demands that I cannot ever live up to. But I am having it all wrong, just as Anne is the wrong position in the ballroom. She should focus on her own needs and desires, dancing, flirting and courting Captain Wentworth. What I should do is focus on myself, on what I need so badly. I long for opening my heart to myself to let forgiveness, peace and softness flow into it. 

I follow the schedule of readings from: Dienstboek, een proeve, Het Boekencentrum, 1998.
Tags: john, lent 2007, religious question, tarot of jane austen, ten of wands
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