But Jesus also claims that he is more this. Moses died, and Jesus promises eternal life. And Jesus claims that his food, his manna, will give eternal life, while the manna in the desert was not more than food.
Today I have read John 6:60-66, the responds of the disciples to the words of Jesus. When his disciples had heard all this they responded: “This is a hard saying! Who can listen to it?” It is hard for them to believe the words of Jesus: that he is ‘living bread’ that and that believing in him will grant eternal life. The disciples have seen the deeds of Jesus: his healings and they tasted his food on the hill of Tiberias, but still it is hard. As a consequence of this speech many of the disciples left Jesus.
The question that I have asked the tarot about this story is: “What do these disciples miss out on by leaving Jesus?”
I have pulled the Lady of Coins, from the Tarot of Jane Austen made by chelsearoad.
Pictured on this card is Eleneor from the book “Sense and Sensibility”. She sits quietly at a window, sketching and thinking. Eleneor is a loyal, trustworthy woman. If she makes a promise she keeps it. She would not make rash decisions or judgements but deliberates them for a long time. The disciples are more like Marianne, the sister of Eleneor. Diane Wilkes contrasts Eleneor with Marianne in the book alongside the deck. Marianne is passionate and open, behaves dramatically, makes rash judgements and decisions based on the quickly changing emotions. Eleneor is much more cautious, and deliberates more.
The behaviour of the disciples make makes me think of Marianne. It is based on the passion and emotion of the moment, and leaving is a dramatic gesture. What the disciples miss out on in leaving Jesus is firstly not so much something what they gain in the contact with Jesus. They miss out on something in themselves. They leave Jesus rashly, not giving Jesus credit for what he already had shown them. In this manner they do not give themselves time to grow in their relationship with Jesus, to hear and understand what he is saying to them and deliberate it in their hearts. They miss out on this character trait and that makes them miss out on the relationship with Jesus as well, which could grow further if they would stay.
What does the behaviour of the disciples say about me? For I do sympathize with these leaving disciples. Although I have drawn the Five of Coins from the Tarot of Jane Austen recently as the card that showed me life until eternity, and while I was very happy with the message of the card, I do not trust the message of Jesus totally, I have the same doubts as the leaving disciples. I do know if the message of Jesus is really that liberating and fruitful.
What advises Eleneor, as the Queen of Coins, me to do? She urges me to grow into the relationship with Jesus, by giving him credit, by staying with his story, and not to leave him yet.