The threat was that I would not be able to reach my destiny with a sailing ship, because the wind would stop blowing, forcing the ship to stay in the middle of the sea.
The biggest project in my life that is stopped in the middle is my PhD thesis. I had typed too much and developed RSI.(…typing this I bring back in my other chair to sit on, the one without a back, the one I was sitting on makes me sit easily with a stooped back, which is not good for the arms). It was a highly theoretical thesis about a difficult subject. Having to stop with it, not having it finished is a moment of ‘before’ and ‘after’ in my life; a seizure.
I dreamt about my thesis. I dreamt that I had a new supervisor, one of the co-workers of my husband, a practical man, not very profound (at least when he is in public). I was working on the thesis, sitting behind the computer, typing. The supervisor walked past me and said: “Where is the row of houses?” A bit strange maybe, but these words meant to me in the dream: “Where is the practical side of it all?” I started blurting out: “No, I don’t…” but then I remembered that I wanted to finish the thesis. I should not make it to complicated. If I was able to keep it simple,"practical", then I could finish it (here is a pin on words, I worked in the field of ‘Practical Theology’).
As in any dream, there are many layers. To keep it in the here and now, this morning I thought I should go back to the course I am developing about psalm 119 and the tarot, despite I do not feel all to well. Working is one of my coping strategies, and I think I should use that strategy right now. I had to stop working on this course in the middle of it when I got this fever. Finishing it is a practical thing to do, and it will keep the threat of the big bad wolf away, because it will give me a feeling of accomplishment when working on it, as well as a bit of diversion, and when it is finished I will have reached a shore.