I pulled Four of Cups from the Victorian Romantic Tarot. A man seems feels desolate, depressed and bored on a party; everyone looks at him and makes a toast in his direction.
A few years ago I was tested for depression when I started a ‘Pain Program’ in a hospital. I was a little bit depressed; not really depressed, but a little bit under the normal scores. At the time that was evaluated as normal under the circumstances. The homeopathic remedies, along with the beep in my ears brought it back sometimes during the past few monts. I passionately hate the feeling.
Right now, it is this illness that makes me feel lethargic. I can do what I need to do. But I must do the extra step for it to really get on doing it.
I do not know if 'feeling depressed' counts as a thought pattern really. But there is a certain lethargy. And that as well is just a feeling, not a thought pattern. Sigh.