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Head Lice and a Calf and a Loom returned, Card 2

My daughter has got lice on her head. It is our first time. I have always afraid for this, because of my arms. I would not be able to do the combing. But now I can, and I am very happy about that. Still I do no like it.

I have read card 2 of my spread inspired by a story about Brigid and hospitality.

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I have read card 2 today: What is the result for my life, when I have to miss the things (card 1) that are of great value to me. Peace and quiet is what I miss (card 1).

I´ve pulled the Emperor from the Victorian Romantic Tarot. 

                    
This Emperor is a lame one. He looks bored, spoiled, and is not very active. He is not doing his emperor job, being in charge. This is, of course, me from the inside. I am polite listening, but not sharing. The longer I look at this card, the more I hate my attitude. The Emperor is not only spoiled, and bored, he is arrogant too by the look of it, and can be angered easily. Seeing this card there is an inner conflict in wanting to be generous and thereby hiding my own needs. 
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Stern

I have pulled Seven of Pentacles (RWS) for what is important to me in first half of the upcoming year. 

              

I see this card as the need of taking stock, in order to see what I have grown, maybe to cut back, or to choose a direction. I want to delve deeper into this card with the help of a spread. It is from Bec, and she posted it on Aeclectic tarotforum: “Wat does (insert) card mean to you?”


Position 1: What influences does this card have on you?
Position 2: What are the strengths associated with this card?
Position 3: What are the weaknesses associated with this card?
Position 4: What is the overall meaning of the card for you?


First question: What influences does the Seven of Pentacles have on me?

Oh dear, I have pulled the Emperor. He looks very stern! 

                 

Pictured on this card from the Tarot of Jane Austen is Thomas Bertram from Mansfield Park. The influence the Seven of Pentacles has on me is that I think I need to care for ‘my estate’, look after it. Thomas Bertram is conventional, and traditional, so no fancy things or clever and time consuming but really interesting projects for me. I feel a little bit overwhelmed by the Seven of Pentacles, as if in protest.
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

New Clothes

It write this at the end of the day. The question for my card today is: “Who was I today?” The card that I pulled is The Emperor, St. Constantine from the Tarot of Saints. 

                            

Drawing the Emperor means I was and still am the Emperor today. It feels a little awkward, standing like the emperor. Sort of…am I really standing here? It feels if my clothes do not fit, as it I just became aware of my position. I felt a little uncomfortable with myself today, which is what the card reflects. Seen in other angle the card reflects me being regal in dealing with situations in my work, stepping out of my petty little self, in order to see things in a bigger and more healing perspective (symbolized by the sun behind the emperor).

Oh...and I fitted many clothes in shops today, and I wear something new. 
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Newsletter

Again very tired in the head. My card that sums up my day is the Emperor from the Gay Tarot. There are many stage images in this deck, this is one of them. 

                   

I like this take on the Emperor, a friendly and powerful figure. This combination is rare in decks. He is something of a sponsor, a benefactor, which all the advantages and disadvantages that are connected with that.

I was working on the building of my empire today as an Emperor does. I tried free software for making a newsletter, because I want to make one with links to my website for spreads, and for the announcement of courses and workshops. I’ve found software that is very nice, called Sendblaster. It has won many prizes, but the disadvantage is that it has not a button in each letter to un-inscribe, and I want subscribers to be able to do that. I found another one, not so fancy, that has this feature in each letter. That is the one I am going to use. I've sent the first letter to myself and it worked.

I felt lousy and tired and weak. All this virtual making-contact-stuff made me feel in need for real contact. I live next to a mill and today it was a special day at the mill. They served pancakes and were open late. The neighbours were invited in the evening before closing time, so my day ended with a coffee with the millers and neighbours.  
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Dream: Kitchen Sink

I worked on a dream today. The following is the dream.

“I dream that there is a new kitchen sink installed in my house. The water runs over the dresser and to the ground when I open the tap. I feel powerless, disappointed and angry.”

I worked with an image from this dream, that of the water that runs over the dresser to the ground. I associated on the image. My associations were: useless, joyless, sad, disappointed, futile.

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I pulled a Major Arcane Card about the big process this image is about. This was the Emperor from the Universal Tarot. I was struck by the lifelessness in the card. It left like I feel right now. I am working and focused on getting my new courses done that I do not feel connected with something lively and spiritual anymore. 

              

Minor
Hence the card of “What to do?”: new found love, connecting with my feelings inside, near the place in my stomach were the cups are in the card and work from there. 


                 
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Fourth Week of Advent, Sunday

Christmas needs planning. Cleaning, decorating, inviting people, or checking train-tables and shopping for presents and food. I overheard in our largest supermarket, Albert Heyn, that in the past two weeks people already have bought the things that your can put in the freezer and that stay fresh in a can or a box. On Monday the suppliers of the shop bring in mainly fresh food. Thus, people have planned already what they want to eat with Christmas. (I did not buy anything yet! I hope they will still have the tiramisu I have laid my eyes on for desert.) All this preparation is done with care and concern. The theme of the prayer of today is Gods care and concern for us in the events of lives, whatever they are, and how we experience them, sad, stressed, lonely, happy or in pain.

The prayer is the following: “Let us know your care and concern God, in the events of our lives.” I have asked for an image that shows God’s care and concern in the events of my life. I have pulled the Emperor of the Tarot of Jane Austen. 

                           

Depicted is Sir Thomas Bertram from Mansfield Park. I laughed looking at the card. Seen in an old-fashioned way this is God, a stern, conservative male God. Seen as God’s care and concern, God is concerned about my rather strong moral code in which must do everything perfect. That ranges from putting up the Christmas decorations, sending Christmas cards, making diner, creating an extra spread for Christmas to so much more. That makes me loose sleep right now.

“Loosen up!” God says sternly to me, “Loosen up!” 
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Pumpkin Spread, a Bit of Scooping

I am doing a Pumpkin Spread These are the positions. 

1. Cutting out and removing the lid: What you need to temporary lift to enable you to see yourself clearer?
2. Scooping out the pumpkin: What you need to work hard on or work through?
3. The seeds you reveal: How you can grow? Your potential?
4. The flesh you remove: The obstacles in the way to let you grow?
5. The hollow: You darker self. What is within you that remains unseen?
6. The carving: What you need to pay attention to?
7. The candle: How you can best shine? Your postives? How to reveal your darker self?
8. Replacing the lid: How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?
9. Placing the pumpkin in the window: How others will see you and respond?

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**2*3*4**
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**6*9*8**

I was not happy pulling the Emperor yesterday as Card 4, the obstacle for my growth. But then again… would not it be lovely not needing work that much? I wonder though…the noises in my ear make relaxation difficult. 

I am still struggling with Card 3, “The seeds you reveal”. I’ve drawn Ace of Cups as an answer to that question. I see the card now as self-love; letting go, not worrying too much; in fact as the self-renewal of the Star that I pulled a while ago.The other cards show my difficulties with these themes.

                                            
Card 1, which showed what I had to lift temporary, was the Queen of Swords. I need to let go of my head, my intellect. Card 4, my obstacle, the Emperor, is telling me the same, The Emperor is very rational as well (especially this version of the Emperor is). 

                                                


Card 2, which showed what I need to work on is having trust in the sacred, thus ‘letting go’ in a way. 

                                

Free flow (of feelings) of the Ace is hard with all the surrounding rational obstacle cards. Tomorrow I’ll pull the next one.   
 
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Pumpkin Spread, Card 4: Drawing Healty Boundaries

I just finished creating a spread for All Souls to put on my website; that really helped me to come to my senses, and myself again. Yesterday and today I worked fanatically on a layout for the material to go with the workshop “The Twelve Days of Christmas”. It was much more work than I thought. Not so much that it is not ready now, so I cannot complain, but my arms hurt… and if I had not worked fanatically, they would not have. That is because I have a feeling of haste; a feeling of having a heavy workload. But I think I have done a lot of it now.

Today I have read the Card 4 of the Pumpkin Spread based on the flesh that is to be removed from the pumpkin. The flesh symbolizes the obstacles that are in the way of letting me grow. 

1. Cutting out and removing the lid: What you need to temporary lift to enable you to see yourself clearer?
2. Scooping out the pumpkin: What you need to work hard on or work through?
3. The seeds you reveal: How you can grow? Your potential?
4. The flesh you remove: The obstacles in the way to let you grow?
5. The hollow: You darker self. What is within you that remains unseen?
6. The carving: What you need to pay attention to?
7. The candle: How you can best shine? Your postives? How to reveal your darker self?
8. Replacing the lid: How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?
9. Placing the pumpkin in the window: How others will see you and respond?

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**2*3*4**
*5*****7*
**6*9*8**

Again I have drawn the Tarot of Prague to work with and the card that I have pulled is: The Emperor. I am not happy with him. The obstacle that prevents my growth is drawing healthy boundaries. These involve my work and some of my relationships. 

                            
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Midsummer's Dream: Summary

Doing a spread in five days, pulling one card each day makes me focus on the individual cards so much that I tend to forget the whole. Therefore I look back now; I summarize and jot new insights down from the cards that I have pulled in my journey during the past five days.

     
The whole spread revolves around ones “Heart desire”, which is card 1 of the spread. I pulled Three of Teacups (Cups) for this desire using the Tarot of Jane Austen. My desire is to have more fun and joy in my life. Card 2, which shows the future of this desire, Eight of Quills, and Card 3, which shows a blockage, Seven of Teacups, told me that it is hard for me to really feel this desire and fully understand what is fun and joy in my life. It took me a few days to really feel and understand the extent to which I lack it and how I need it in my life. It appeared that I was setting up a delusional world for my wish and have trouble accessing it (Eight of Quills and Seven of Teacups). 
                                                                                                      
                                                                                        
The Emperor and Ten of Candlesticks (Ann Alliot), card 4 and 5, showed me that I have a strong moral code, which makes it hard to feel fun and joy, and to go for it. I also looked into my resistance to the Three of Cups card: I judge it as superficial and ‘over the top’. This showed my strong moral code as well. 

                     

The last card that I pulled was Eight of Coins (again Anne Elliot), which showed the outcome of my psychic development. I saw this card as a mixed blessing: at the one hand, I will be confident, be able to do many things effortless, and on the other hand I will be probably working hard, which might make enjoying difficult. 

All in all, my heart desire is not an easy thing to obtain.
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Midsummer's Dream: Card 4

Yesterday, before I did the drawings I have posted in my previous spread, I had pulled the card that belongs at the fourth position of the Midsummer’s Dream spread. The position is called: "Future Trends of the Need for Protection". The question for this position is: What trends are being set? Am I on my way to fulfilling my heart’s desire, or do I need to go in another direction?

I have pulled the Emperor from the Tarot of Jane Austen made bychelsearoad. Depicted is Sir Thomas from Mansfield Park, a stern and conservative man. 

                 
                                                                      
There is a huge contrast between this card and the card that represented my heart’s desire, Three of Cups. The Three of Cups card has a sense of freedom, fun and going with the flow. The Emperor is strict; he defends and builds his empire, and is in need of control. Sir Thomas -and the Emperor-  has a strong moral code, according to Diane Wilkes her essay about this card. One of the themes in the Mansfield Park is a play to be held in the house, to which Sir Thomas objects when he comes back from a long trip. That depicts his moral code.

Do I need to go in another direction? I think so, at least if I want to have more Three of Cups fun flowing in my life. Having drawn this stern Emperor made me aware of that. But he is so stern and stands such a high moral ground that I think it will not be a simple thing to do, going in another direction.