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Twelve Days of Christmas, Fourth Day, Feast of Fools

These are my cards pulled in the spread of the Fool, celebrating the Feast of Fools in the Twelve Days of Christmas. There are four cards in the spread.
Card 1, the problem the Fool is heading for, the problem that must be solved in a foolish way,
Card 2, the origin of the problem
Card 3, the card of the Fool
Card 4, a foolish way to solve your problem (this card belongs on top of the Fool, showing a bit of the Fool Card).

For card 1, the card the Fool is walking towards and that represents my problem, I have pulled Five of Crystals from the Inner Child Cards. 

              

On the card a gnome fits a circle on a mandala that is meant to protect the house. All the while he is whistling. This card shows a problem: combining home and work and other things I like to do.

Card 2 that shows the origin of the problem is Nine of Swords. 

                

I feel fenced in by the problem, and I might make it bigger than it is in reality; I know I do.

Card 3 is the Fool, represented by Little Redcap, enjoying her walk through the woods, with the wolf lurking around a tree. I am not showing this card.

As card 4 I have drawn the Fairy Godmother, the High Priestess. That is the second time around I've pulled this card in these Twelve days. 

                   

The High Priestess in this deck is a motherly High Priestesses, a combination of the Empress and the High Priestess. Funny is that The Fairy Godmother embodies the problem I am facing: to combine the secluded High Priestess tasks with the motherly Empress. That is a funny and fitting on this Day of Fools in which games are played. And it adds depth to the reading of the first of the Twelve Days, in which she represented what is young and vulnerable.

The Fairy Godmother invites me yet again to find and use the key to my wisdom and my inner compass, reminding me not making the problem bigger than it is by waving my magic wand at it.   
Lady Bosch

Spiritual Truth in Daily Life

Walking a spiritual path, does that help with daily trials? It should, should not it? Spirituality is not meant as a world apart but is meant to be implemented in daily life. 

Today I have asked for spiritual wisdom to face my greatest daily challenge for today. 

My daily challenge came from the Jane Austen Tarot and I pulled my spiritual wisdom from the Golden Tarot of the Tsar. The cards were the same, both the 5 of Coins card. Amazing, pulling the same card for challenge and answer; a little and wise joke from the tarot. 

                                  

On 5 of Coins from the Jane Austen Tarot Mrs. Smith from Persuasion is pictured. She is in Bath because of the healing waters. She is poor and does not have a good health, but all the same she is cheerful and happy. This card alone gave me the spiritual wisdom already: do not feel sorry for yourself. Five of Coins from the Golden Tarot of the Tsar shows Job, holding his hand out for a gift. 

                                 

Instead of receiving a reward for the good life he lived, Job gets poor and sick. Job is angry, he had not expected this and experiences it as a punishment. The wisdom here is basically the same: do not feel a victim. It a common wisdom, but a spiritial truth as well.

Beforehand I hesitated pulling my second card from the Golden Tarot of the Tsar, because one does not need a religious themed tarot for a spiritual truth. By giving me the same card the tarot affirms this view, and more. Since the first card pulled for the challenge gave me the answer, it suggest that not two cards, but only one card is needed for the answer, the challenge encloses the answer already.

Inspired by Caitlín Matthews, The Celtic Spirit, Harper San Francisco, 1999. 
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Pumpkin Spread, Card 8: Trust the Stream of Life

I have pulled card 8 of the Pumpkin Spread. These are the positions.

1. Cutting out and removing the lid: What you need to temporary lift to enable you to see yourself clearer?
2. Scooping out the pumpkin: What you need to work hard on or work through?
3. The seeds you reveal: How you can grow? Your potential?
4. The flesh you remove: The obstacles in the way to let you grow?
5. The hollow: You darker self. What is within you that remains unseen?
6. The carving: What you need to pay attention to?
7. The candle: How you can best shine? Your postives? How to reveal your darker self?
8. Replacing the lid: How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?
9. Placing the pumpkin in the window: How others will see you and respond?

****1****
**2*3*4**
*5*****7*
**6*9*8**

Based on by the action of replacing the lid after the candle lighted the question for Card 8 is: “How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?”

From my little bag with deck titles I picked the Inner Child Cards to work with and pulled Four of Swords. The card shows four boys on a raft in a stream going slowly towards a goal what is to be seen on the top of the card. The raft goes easily through the water, no real effort is being made. 

                       

The improvement I will notice is that I’ll go more easily with the flow, that I will have more trust in the stream of life. My eyes are set on where I go, but the journey is easier.The overly controlling forces like the Emperor –which was my obstacle for growth in this spread- and the Queen of Swords, the attitude that I had to temporary lift, will bother me less. 

                                    

I will feel more affinity with the free flowing Ace of Cups instead (on which a river is shown, just as on this card, Four of Swords). The trust of Five of Coins, the card that showed what I needed to work hard on, will be there too. The boys trust their raft. 


                        
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Pumpkin Spread, a Bit of Scooping

I am doing a Pumpkin Spread These are the positions. 

1. Cutting out and removing the lid: What you need to temporary lift to enable you to see yourself clearer?
2. Scooping out the pumpkin: What you need to work hard on or work through?
3. The seeds you reveal: How you can grow? Your potential?
4. The flesh you remove: The obstacles in the way to let you grow?
5. The hollow: You darker self. What is within you that remains unseen?
6. The carving: What you need to pay attention to?
7. The candle: How you can best shine? Your postives? How to reveal your darker self?
8. Replacing the lid: How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?
9. Placing the pumpkin in the window: How others will see you and respond?

****1****
**2*3*4**
*5*****7*
**6*9*8**

I was not happy pulling the Emperor yesterday as Card 4, the obstacle for my growth. But then again… would not it be lovely not needing work that much? I wonder though…the noises in my ear make relaxation difficult. 

I am still struggling with Card 3, “The seeds you reveal”. I’ve drawn Ace of Cups as an answer to that question. I see the card now as self-love; letting go, not worrying too much; in fact as the self-renewal of the Star that I pulled a while ago.The other cards show my difficulties with these themes.

                                            
Card 1, which showed what I had to lift temporary, was the Queen of Swords. I need to let go of my head, my intellect. Card 4, my obstacle, the Emperor, is telling me the same, The Emperor is very rational as well (especially this version of the Emperor is). 

                                                


Card 2, which showed what I need to work on is having trust in the sacred, thus ‘letting go’ in a way. 

                                

Free flow (of feelings) of the Ace is hard with all the surrounding rational obstacle cards. Tomorrow I’ll pull the next one.   
 
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Pumpkin Spread, Card 2: Trust


Today I pulled the second card of the Pumkin Spread.

1. Cutting out and removing the lid: What you need to temporary lift to enable you to see yourself clearer?
2. Scooping out the pumpkin: What you need to work hard on or work through?
3. The seeds you reveal: How you can grow? Your potential?
4. The flesh you remove: The obstacles in the way to let you grow?
5. The hollow: You darker self. What is within you that remains unseen?
6. The carving: What you need to pay attention to?
7. The candle: How you can best shine? Your postives? How to reveal your darker self?
8. Replacing the lid: How you will feel more content? The improvement you will notice?
9. Placing the pumpkin in the window: How others will see you and respond?

****1****
**2*3*4**
*5*****7*
**6*9*8**

I pulled the Ma’at Tarot from my little bag with titles as the deck that is best to use for the question which was: “What do you need to work hard on or work through? I have drawn Five of Coins as the answer to this question. 

                  

The card is associated with the last quarter moon in Taurus. The theme of this card is healing. Two people who are at a sacred site hope that their prayers and offerings will help them in their lives. I am afraid I played this down a little bit. In the workbook is written that these petinioners hope miracles will result out of their prayers and offerings. We do not go for less do we!

Right now I am reading a book about Maria apparitions and healings brought on by her and I think the card responds to that. I bought the book cheaply in the American Bookshop and I love to read these stories before I fall asleep. They are slightly discomforting: “How can all these healings happen?” and “Oh dear would I be shocked if I saw a floating Maria!” It is a paradox. The stories comfort as well, reading that miracles do happen is strange but wonderful at the same time.

The card advises me that I need to work through what blocks my belief in the intervention from the Goddess or God. 

It relates to the first card in the following way: the first card addressed the need to temperary lift my rational mind (Qeen of Swords). One needs that to trust in the power of the sacred.  
Madonna del "Magnificat" (detail)

Cinderella's Victim Spread, Card 10: Prayers

Just now I have pulled a card for “The Shoe”, position ten in Cinderella’s Victim Spread. The card represents my chance to regain my desire, that is not to be burdened – in fact not to worry too much. My chance to regain my desire are prayers. I have pulled Five of Coins from the Ma’at Tarot. On the card two petitioners are at a sacred site and hope their prayers and 
offerings will be heard.     

                                         

The card is associated with the last Quarter Moon in Taurus. That might be because of the artist wants to draw attention to the healing gifts from Mother Earth, Taurus is an earth sign, a sensual earth sign.                       

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Saturday, Fourth Week of Lent, John 6:60-66, Disciples leave Jesus

In the passages I have read during the past days Jesus has positioned himself carefully in tradition of faith he belongs too. He claimed that he was sent by God, and that he did not wanted anything else than God; he said he acted according to Gods will. He referred also to Moses, an important forefather, who led the people of Israel out of Egypt. Further he mentioned ‘manna’, food given by God in the desert when the people of Israel could not find any and almost starved.

But Jesus also claims that he is more this. Moses died, and Jesus promises eternal life. And Jesus claims that his food, his manna, will give eternal life, while the manna in the desert was not more than food.

Today I have read John 6:60-66, the responds of  the disciples to the words of Jesus. When his disciples had heard all this they responded: “This is a hard saying! Who can listen to it?” It is hard for them to believe the words of Jesus: that he is ‘living bread’ that and that believing in him will grant eternal life. The disciples have seen the deeds of Jesus: his healings and they tasted his food on the hill of Tiberias, but still it is hard. As a consequence of this speech many of the disciples left Jesus.

The question that I have asked the tarot about this story is: “What do these disciples miss out on by leaving Jesus?”

I have pulled the Lady of Coins, from the Tarot of Jane Austen made by chelsearoad.

                         

Pictured on this card is Eleneor from the book “Sense and Sensibility”. She sits quietly at a window, sketching and thinking. Eleneor is a loyal, trustworthy woman. If she makes a promise she keeps it. She would not make rash decisions or judgements but deliberates them for a long time. The disciples are more like Marianne, the sister of Eleneor. Diane Wilkes contrasts Eleneor with Marianne in the book alongside the deck. Marianne is passionate and open, behaves dramatically, makes rash judgements and decisions based on the quickly changing emotions. Eleneor is much more cautious, and deliberates more.

The behaviour of the disciples make makes me think of Marianne. It is based on the passion and emotion of the moment, and leaving is a dramatic gesture. What the disciples miss out on in leaving Jesus is firstly not so much something what they gain in the contact with Jesus. They miss out on something in themselves. They leave Jesus rashly, not giving Jesus credit for what he already had shown them. In this manner they do not give themselves time to grow in their relationship with Jesus, to hear and understand what he is saying to them and deliberate it in their hearts. They miss out on this character trait and that makes them miss out on the relationship with Jesus as well, which could grow further if they would stay.

What does the behaviour of the disciples say about me? For I do sympathize with these leaving disciples. Although I have drawn the Five of Coins from the Tarot of Jane Austen recently as the card that showed me life until eternity, and while I was very happy with the message of the card, I do not trust the message of Jesus totally, I have the same doubts as the leaving disciples. I do know if the message of Jesus is really that liberating and fruitful.

What advises Eleneor, as the Queen of Coins, me to do? She urges me to grow into the relationship with Jesus, by giving him credit, by staying with his story, and not to leave him yet.
Lady Bosch

Wednesday, Fourth Week of Lent, John 6:27-40, Bread of Life

                                 

I am reading a continuous story in the gospel of John, for a few days already. Today I have read John 6:27-40. The many people that came to hear Jesus and were fed by him in a miraculous manner, had followed him in boats over the lake of Tiberius to Capernaum in order to look for him. When they eventually found him, Jesus told them that they did not search for him because they had seen ‘signs,’ miracles that show that Jesus is the Messiah whom they are awaiting, but because they had eaten from food that “remains unto eternal life”, or food “that will give them eternal life” (depends on the translation). In my own words, the people who had eaten the bread and the fish on the green pastures of the hills of Tiberius, had tasted the kingdom of God.

The people listening were not satisfied with Jesus’ words. They wanted to know what sort of bread its was that they had tasted what Jesus had given them. They asked Jesus: “What then do you do for a sign, that we may see, and believe you? What work do you do? Our fathers ate the manna in the wilderness. As it is written, ‘He gave them bread out of heaven’.” What was the bread that we tasted? The people gathered, tried in this way to establish who Jesus is, just like me yesterday, wondering what that is, this vulnerable thing of faith. Referring to the ‘written text’ about manna, that was given by God in the desert when the people of Israel almost starve, they tried to position Jesus in the tradition they find themselves into. Jesus answered them that he himself is the ‘bread of life’: “He who comes to me will not be hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty”. Jesus is as the life-saving manna in the desert, which the people knew from their tradition.

Today my question to the tarot is: What does it mean, that Jesus is the ‘bread of life’?

To answer this question I have used the Tarot of Jane Austen made by chelsearoadand I have pulled Five of Coins. Depicted is a poor woman who was healthy and rich earlier but not now anymore. She came to Bath for the healing waters, so in touch with John, in who’s gospel the living water of Jesus is meant to heal people.

Looking at the card, I certainly do not envy this woman, mrs. Smith from Persuasion, but I think her message is extremely important in my life. 

                      

Although the woman is poor, sickly and shivers from cold, she, so says Diane Wilkes in the book along the deck, is relatively cheerful, has “an elasticity of mind,” is able to is able to put things into perspective.

Many objects on the card can bring her comfort or even healing: the water of Bath in the tub, the cane that stands beside her that can help her walk (and as a wand an instrument of divine fire). She has the light of the candle to lighten her up, the quill to write with and in this deck also a symbol of the suit of swords, swords that she can use for clarity and discernment and gaining perspective.

So what does it mean to me that Jesus is the ‘bread of life’? I do not think that our problems like poverty, sickness and discrimination are gone until eternal life if we believe that Jesus is the bread of life. To me, bread of life it means that I am able to find comfort and ways of coping and dealing (psychological, spiritual) with concrete problems in my life like money, illness and disappointment.
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Klimt


Today I chose two tarot-cards instead of pulling them; I bought a new beautiful deck,The Golden Tarot of Klimt, and I want to keep the cards in their right order. Choosing cards can give many insights. It sharpens the senses about an issue.

Today the lovely Sophie from Groningen did all sorts of wonderful things for my arms. She copied lots of paintings as well from the internet for me to use in my blog. And then she showed me how to install Incredimail. I learned a lot. I chose The Moon for what she did for my arms. 

                                                                          

It has never been a topic in my blog until now, but every day I miss the preparation for my lessons on the Major Arcana, I worked on for the last two and half year. I do not miss the writing so much, or the structure in my day (yet), but the magazines I used. When I browse through the magazines in the supermarket it is still my reflex to think: "Can I use this article in one of my lessons or that one?" And then I remember suddenly that I do not need them anymore, that it is all over and done. Then I am sad. The card I choose to depict this is 5 of pentacles. It is picturing me, looking at the magazines, but not needing them.